I can be who I want to be!

Robert H. Schuller, the famous author once said "when you start to believe in yourself, your life will start to change!", indeed very true.

I remember when I was a little kid, my character represents timid, introvert, shy, passive and I felt uncomfortable to mingle around with strangers because I am very lacking of self-confidence.

Being brought up in a family where my parents work for money day and night, earning enough for all my 5 siblings was tough. I still remember when I was at the age of 7, finally having the courage to ask my mum to buy me a beautiful water container which I want to bring it to school, end up being rejected and I cried for such incident for the whole day. When I was around 10, my dad accidently ultered that "you dont have guts!", destroying my self-confident and create more sadness in me. Worst still, I had an elder sister that likes to "discipline" me while my parents were not at home. She is the "tigress" in our house... until today, lols...

Our past experience, be it what we heard, we saw or we felt affected us so much that sometimes we forgotten the "eagle" in us. We became the "chicken" that follows what others want, being fed with their ideas and ideologies, or perhaps being a victim by ourselves. This is true to me for a long long time...

After graduation, I attended many seminars for self-motivation and improvements. I started to tell myself " Hey, fly high eagle! You can be who you want to be!" I build my confident day after day. From speaking infront of a small crowd of 4-5, into a weekly assembly of 15-20, conducting short training to a group of 30-40, transforming myself to conduct training on stage to a crowd of 50-60, up to a crowd consists of 600 audiences. WOW! We can create live miracle ! I am fortunate and grateful that I had taken the steps to change. I couldnt image this can happen to me when I was a child or teenager. Even today, I think my parents will "faint on the spot" and dont believe that is me on the stage if they can have a chance to join my training programs...lols!

Today, I am addicted when I am on stage! I am totally a different person. When I am on stage I just felt that is the true me. I got excited on stage to share, to care and to deliver my best to the audience, because I know somehow there is a past "me" sitting infront of me, waiting the moments to make a decision to step out and be the new "me" and say "Yes, I can be who I want to be!"

Interest or Commitment

For quite some time havent update my blogs. Today is the last day of February 2011, so perhaps I need to "fill up the blanks" for this month, and lets not talk about January, I totally forgotten to put anything here. Pehaps giving myself excuses it is our Chinese New Year month....

When I started to write blogs, I think it is something "cool", something worthwhile doing, to share and to give my views so that someone somewhere in this world can rejoice with what I experience, gain some useful insights from what I write, and felt good after reading. It is merely an interest for me. I still remember the first article put on blog, I was excited and keen to let many of my clients and friends know about it :)

Time passes, and the incident is like just yesterday. In fact it was in 2008, the year I started my company. If I say it is still interest in writing blogs, I dont feel the excitement anymore. I realise writing something good for people to read, should be a commitment for me now. My aim is to write something so that in the future, I could pick up part and parcel of my blogs to compile into a useful mini-book as a "legacy" from me, haha...:)

I think my experience sounds familiar to you? When we first involved in something we want, we have the strong "urge", the great momentum and feelings wanting to have it. We do "whatever it takes" just to get it. These includes getting a job, aiming for a promotion, getting a new boyfriend/girlfriend, etc... Then over the time, the intense feeling is not there, and we started to get "lost"!

I believe the next level we should move on is called "commitment". If we are mature enough to understand our feelings, we aware that feelings come and go, yet responsibility and commitment stays. Thus, commit to do something in our life is so important so that we will continue to strive towards our goals.

"I want to be a successful coach, trainer and people strategist to add values to other people's life, to bring joy and happiness to everyone and anyone who knows me!" Such simple commitment to say, take great courage to do. And writing blog is only part of what I am doing....cheers, and happy reading!